lettres d'amour

Dear Bianca,

Right now, it seems like there is someone who is willing, who is brave enough, to take a plunge, a gamble to tear down the walls I have built around myself once more and enter my life.

I am thankful but extremely terrified. I admit that I am left scarred from losing you, and I don’t think I can ever go through a third time of losing someone in any way. I am afraid to start caring and being vulnerable, to be even slightly dependent on someone other than myself.

And most of all, I don’t think I deserve to love someone, and even more so to be loved.

Wish you were here, Ruby.